I just want to hang my head and cry in frustration.

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Did you know boredom can kill you? Apparently it can. According to a study (a real one not an internet poll), people who have intolerably boring jobs also seem to die premature deaths.

Link here: https://www.psychologytoday.com/blog/curious/201003/science-shows-you-can-die-boredom-literally

Thank god I have you to look forward to when I am not working or I really would lose my mind. I have been saying good-bye unexpectedly to a few folks these past months. I don't take insults, even veiled ones, or game playing lightly. I don't have time for that kind of teenage hostility from grown men and I will never need anyone's support that badly. It is sad though, that I even had to be in this position in the first place. I don't insult you or treat you like a game to be played, why would you ever think it would be fair or reasonable to do that to me? You know what I mean?

So bored. So tired. So aggravated and worse, in a position where I have to take politely bracketed condescension and underestimation of who I am or am capable of and swallow it with a smile and in silence because... they are the boss and that's how it works in the real world. Note to self: The real world sucks as badly as you remember it. Maybe worse. God, people and their stupid ego games are exhausting.

So I am sorry I haven't been around writing my chirpy, chipper little posts of glorious self confession. I will be back in a few days.

And for you lovely Baltimore boys who have so graciously and enthusiastically shown up in my mailbox, voicemail and text to let me know that you not only remember me but only think the nicest things about me - THANK YOU. Your warm words have done a lot for my mental health, especially today. Its been especially daunting today and I really needed a reminder that I do something right and well in life.

Its the little things in life that are always such big deals.